The Young and the Wireless
I have been playing the first Kingdom Hearts on and off the last couple weeks, and it's just as addictive as the 2nd game, even with the lack of improvements present in the 2nd game. However I got a little bored of it today and decided to channel surf, finally stopping on techtv. I watched it for about 20 minutes before I realized I was watching "Call for Help", a show where people call in with usually basic computer problems. I felt a little ashamed and turned off the TV. Eventhough I am sure I could use some of those tips,it felt like I was admitting my inferiority regarding technology by watching that TV show. I guess it's hard for humans to realize that the knowledge they possess, no matter how vast, is nothing in the grand scheme of things.
I told myself I would stop putting money on my credit card so I could pay it off before school starts again, and then I made an order on Thinkgeek. Well that lasted long. I am also trying to save for an anime con in August, I swear having a credit card is a curse most of the time. Especially with the ease of online ordering. I guess I am more like my mother then I thought.
On another note, I think I am turning bitter. Let me elaborate on this. I have been in the 'boyfriend' mode since around last September. Before then I hadn't done much dating, just high school stuff, nothing serious. I had my first real relationship and when it ended I was left with a bitter taste in my mouth. I haven't exactly had good luck with guys, I've had 3 that have hurt me pretty deeply. However I am sure it's nothing compared to the experiences of other people. It didn't help that a guy I work with tried to get me to his place after talking to me for 10 minutes. His ego was bruised when I said no, but we had a date set later in the week and let's just say he decided me declining his initial invitation was unacceptable. All in all, not terribly bad experiences, But it seems to have been enough to get me out of the boyfriend mode. Well not entirely, I am still romanticising about seeing someone and getting that moment of 'love at first sight' but who doesn't dream of that. It hasn't helped that my boss keeps telling me I need a boyfriend, because for whatever reason, he can't accept that I am a homebody and am quite happy on my own.
Something I always wonder is if guys are intimidated by me. I don't want to sound all egotistical or feminist-ish, but it has crossed my mind. First of all, I am in a male-dominated field, Secondly, I am very independent, to a fault sometimes I am sure, and Lastly,I have huge dreams and I know exactly what I want in life. At school, the guys seem to think that because I am a girl in comp sci and because I am actually good-looking (how I hate saying that), that I must want them to approach me. I marked assignments for a first year class last year and I also handed them back, and I found myself being yakked to like crazy by some of these guys. They were nice and all, but I got sick of them approaching me with that comp sci 'OMG boobies!' look on their faces. I mean come on, no offense to any of the guys, but I didn't go into comp sci to look for a boyfriend/husband. I know some other girls out there can sympathize with me here.Also, if the guys aren't ogling me, then they think I have no clue. I don't know which bothers me more. I hate that attitude that some of the guys have, they don't mind staring at my chest or butt, but be damned if they think I have any intelligence, compared to them anyway. It may sound like a pity party, but girls go through a lot of crap being a male-dominated major, even field. I remember my first networking class in highschool,I was the only girl and it scared the heck out of me. I would come home and cry because I thought there was no way for me to know what the other guys knew. But after a while I got used to it, and now it's not even an issue. I realize that there are only 4 other girls in my year, and since most of my friends are guys anyway, it doesn't matter.
On another other note, I am working on a website for women in IT right now. It's just going to be an information site about what computer science is, breaking the stereotypes, etc. There is not much information on it yet, but it's looking pretty good so far. Here it is : IgirlsT
Speaking of breaking stereotypes, how's a calendar full of scantily clad women in IT for promoting women in computers. I think it's a bit backwards myself, because obviously the women aren't going to buy the calendar. However the money from the calendars is put to a scholarship fund to women in computing, so it is for a good cause, just seems like an odd way to go about it. Anyway, the website is Geek Gorgeous if you are curious.
Another long entry, at the start of another long week.
I told myself I would stop putting money on my credit card so I could pay it off before school starts again, and then I made an order on Thinkgeek. Well that lasted long. I am also trying to save for an anime con in August, I swear having a credit card is a curse most of the time. Especially with the ease of online ordering. I guess I am more like my mother then I thought.
On another note, I think I am turning bitter. Let me elaborate on this. I have been in the 'boyfriend' mode since around last September. Before then I hadn't done much dating, just high school stuff, nothing serious. I had my first real relationship and when it ended I was left with a bitter taste in my mouth. I haven't exactly had good luck with guys, I've had 3 that have hurt me pretty deeply. However I am sure it's nothing compared to the experiences of other people. It didn't help that a guy I work with tried to get me to his place after talking to me for 10 minutes. His ego was bruised when I said no, but we had a date set later in the week and let's just say he decided me declining his initial invitation was unacceptable. All in all, not terribly bad experiences, But it seems to have been enough to get me out of the boyfriend mode. Well not entirely, I am still romanticising about seeing someone and getting that moment of 'love at first sight' but who doesn't dream of that. It hasn't helped that my boss keeps telling me I need a boyfriend, because for whatever reason, he can't accept that I am a homebody and am quite happy on my own.
Something I always wonder is if guys are intimidated by me. I don't want to sound all egotistical or feminist-ish, but it has crossed my mind. First of all, I am in a male-dominated field, Secondly, I am very independent, to a fault sometimes I am sure, and Lastly,I have huge dreams and I know exactly what I want in life. At school, the guys seem to think that because I am a girl in comp sci and because I am actually good-looking (how I hate saying that), that I must want them to approach me. I marked assignments for a first year class last year and I also handed them back, and I found myself being yakked to like crazy by some of these guys. They were nice and all, but I got sick of them approaching me with that comp sci 'OMG boobies!' look on their faces. I mean come on, no offense to any of the guys, but I didn't go into comp sci to look for a boyfriend/husband. I know some other girls out there can sympathize with me here.Also, if the guys aren't ogling me, then they think I have no clue. I don't know which bothers me more. I hate that attitude that some of the guys have, they don't mind staring at my chest or butt, but be damned if they think I have any intelligence, compared to them anyway. It may sound like a pity party, but girls go through a lot of crap being a male-dominated major, even field. I remember my first networking class in highschool,I was the only girl and it scared the heck out of me. I would come home and cry because I thought there was no way for me to know what the other guys knew. But after a while I got used to it, and now it's not even an issue. I realize that there are only 4 other girls in my year, and since most of my friends are guys anyway, it doesn't matter.
On another other note, I am working on a website for women in IT right now. It's just going to be an information site about what computer science is, breaking the stereotypes, etc. There is not much information on it yet, but it's looking pretty good so far. Here it is : IgirlsT
Speaking of breaking stereotypes, how's a calendar full of scantily clad women in IT for promoting women in computers. I think it's a bit backwards myself, because obviously the women aren't going to buy the calendar. However the money from the calendars is put to a scholarship fund to women in computing, so it is for a good cause, just seems like an odd way to go about it. Anyway, the website is Geek Gorgeous if you are curious.
Another long entry, at the start of another long week.
posted by archergirl | 8:35 PM
1 Comments:
Hey Jenny, Just know that you can do anything, work hard and you will succeed :D.
Besides, you can flaunt your nice degree at the end of this year to everyone who didn't think you were geek enough to get a COSC Degree.
Keep up the good work, and I hope you make millions off those calendars ;)
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